“in His plan there are no true endings”

oh family, family, family :) :)

first of all, i love you. did you know that you are my greatest love? well, obviously the gospel of Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are my greatest love. but my SECOND greatest loves are my family and my mission. and the only thing that makes leaving one behind okay is the other. :) :) :) so thank you for being so wonderful <3

in OTHER news, it's been a crazy week! as always! hahaha actually it's been a pretty good one. let's start with the update on my feelings. things i have felt this week (in no particular order): good. happy. anxious. anticipation. happy. good. calm. peace. crying. overjoyed. ecstatic. crying. happy. sad. anxious. love. extremely happy. laughing. cold. warm. surprised. nostalgia. excitement. anxious. confidence. happy. good. happy. good. peace. happy. :)i think that about covers it ;)

but seriously though. it's been a super good week. the Lord has blessed me mucho :) i've actually been pretty good, like it hasn't felt real & i keep forgetting.... saturday night & sunday we had stake conference and i kept having mini seizures of anxiety and being like "i'm never going to see these people again!!!" but i survived :) :) also sunday i kept crying but i think that's because it was easter. the bonners asked about my family so i obviously cried.... and brother b gave me a blessing so i obviously cried. but overall i have felt very peaceful :) AND, i'm almost finished packing :) #gome :)

well tuesday was my last district meeting and elder andrus played "God Be With You Till We Meet Again" on the electronic piano about 973888 times... "verse 9!" hahaha. it was annoying but... thoughtful? ;) 

wednesday we did yard work and that was fun! reminded me of mom ;) also, i am in love with the state of wisconsin. like i'm pretty sure i like it better than any other place on earth.......... #howdidthathappen #sorrynotsorry #didntseethatonecoming18monthsago ;) also i would like to go to nauvoo soon.

thursday we did family history with sister t (less-active) and her (non-member) friend :) best question: "how is this free?? why???" ohhhh, let me tell you friend :) :) :)

also, after volunteering at the library, c the librarian was like "well bye, see you never!" (basically) and i was like "um excuse you, i'll be back here next week at 2:30..." (basically.) it was weird. story of my week. :) 

also, got tons of mail this week! haha thanks to everyone.... y'all are the best for this sister missionary in the end-stages of missionary life haha :) :) :) <3

friday we went to say goodbye to my bff sister g who is in her 90s. she is my bff because when she is calling someone to come over she says "come, come ye saints!" and so do i :) #besties. we finna skype when i get home. i am NOT well pleased with all of these goodbyes but it is okay. thank goodness for technology ;) best quote from her: "don't cry... it's all happy" :) :) okay sister gilman. okay :)

also, we watched the "because of Him" video with her and she read it out loud and CHEERED - like literally fists in the air cheered - when Jesus was resurrected :) :) :) :) <3 also we saw the rehbecks and i love them.

these is the weirdest email ever. details when i see you? haha :) 

ALSO on friday we went on the lake walk and i loved it. it was warm! and sunshiney! and we talked to so many people and i loved it!! :) :) :) pictures to come :) :)

SATURDAY was my favorite day. i literally said "this is my favorite day" out loud so many times. because it was. happiness is cool because it builds and builds and builds on itself. i'm happier today than i've ever been in my life. how cool! :) :) :) 

i have a problem because on saturday i called every culvers in the greater milwaukee area looking for someone who could get me a pint of chocolate eclair frozen custard. #favorite #addiction?

saturday was exceptional because it was STAKE CONFERENCE and elder godoy from the seventy spoke and he is my new favorite person...... ever :) https://www.lds.org/church/leader/carlos-a-godoy seriously he is great. i will now include a series of quotes. prepare yourself for greatness :) [important fact: he is from brazil. brazilian is my new favorite accent ever. spanish + french = win.] :)

"We're not doing different things, we're just doing more, better, faster." 

"The Lord is saying, Please! Would you help me? This is why I know that if you pray for missionary opportunities, the Lord will answer you, because they're already happening!" 

[how he felt when he first came to a church activity at age 16] "They have something inside that make them be as happy as they are."

~my favorite moment~ describing what he said to his mother/how he felt after his first missionary lesson. he GRABS THE MICROPHONE AND STARTS SHAKING IT "The True Church!!!!!!!!! It is back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" :) :) :) :) :) :) :) <3

[talking about everyone we meet] "There is a spirit inside saying, [here he starts waving his hand in the air] Please! I'm here!" 

"It is the Church of Jesus Christ, even with its imperfections."

[to the Lord] "Put across my way, & I will talk, I will do it."

"I will make some mistakes but I will act. If I will mistake it will be acting."

"Even not knowing what to expect, one thing I already know - the Spirit will be there. Because this is the Church of Jesus Christ. This is His church." <3 [i feel like this one is especially for me <3]

(talking about how husbands should say "i love you" to their wives more often... this is what not to say ;)) "I told her when I married her that I love her so if I change my mind I will let her know."

"Going to walmart is not a date!" 

& many more great things that I can't write down... you just had to be there :) I love the church of Jesus Christ. I love to feel the Spirit :)

Milwaukee South Stake Conference this weekend was such a blessing because this is the stake that I started in...... 18 months ago. #weird. I saw so many people that I knew and a few of them even recognized me and took pictures ;) ALSO, this is cool, I saw a guy that we had been trying to get in to teach right before I left Racine and I was like "hm, i wonder if they ever got to teach him! he's still coming to church!" and THEN.... when they were reading the names of brethren to receive the melchizedek priesthood.... he stood up :) :) :) so appaaaaaaarently, he got baptized. hahaha :) :) :) it was cool :) 

I just.... love the saints of the Milwaukee area. they are so amazing. I love to feel of their faith. I love it here in Wisconsin :) :) :) we rode to stake conference sunday with the B and I was talking about how we think they're pretty close to perfect, Brother B says, "Not me! Sister B is though," and Sister B says, "Well, I have a memory problem...." as if that makes it easier for her to be perfect hahaha I love them <3 <3 <3

Easter was great; so many kind friends gave us easter baskets & presents & flowers that smell good and took such good care of us. I know I'm coming "home" this week but I kind of feel like my home is here too :) :) :)

Well. I don't have much else to say I guess. A lot of things are changing this week.... but some things I know will never change. I am a servant of the Lord. today & forever. and i love that :) :) :)

one more thing before I go --- He Lives. Christ lives. & He is leading His church. He is active. not a memory, not a inspiration, not words on a page. not nice thoughts to live by. He lives. I know that He lives. and I know that He leads this church. This is the true and living church of Jesus Christ, and I am blessed to be His witness :) :) :)

"For verily I say unto you, that great things await you;" (D&C 45:62) :)

I'm excited to see you, dear family. You are the only thing that's making leaving behind my favorite life okay :) :) :)

love, love, love you forever        sister cecelia proffit

I love the gospel of Jesus Christ :)

oh hey there, family :)FIRST OF ALL, to anyone who hasn't seen this already....... mormon.org/BecauseofHim

it is legit and you don't even have to be mormon to like it. i believe in Jesus Christ. i love Him and i try my best to serve Him <3 please, watch the video. it will make your heart sing redeeming love :) :) :) so anyways. the world is great. :) other good things include this mormon message http://www.mormonchannel.org/video/mormon-messages?v=3446112587001 and this "i'm a mormon" video (hint: #neontrees) :) :) :) http://www.mormon.org/elainei like those things :) i also have forgotten what it's like to not hear a wisconsin accent. i love the people here. i love the way they speak :) i also love frozen custard. wisconsin is the most beautiful place on earth. if i could take accurate pictures...... i would show you. just picture your heart expanding soooooo wide and big and you can't breathe and you sorta wanna cry because God is just so GOOD. that's how i feel...... a great majority of the time :) :) :) :) :)

tuesday we chased down the UPS man to get a package for sis roylance and we ate kopps <3 frozen custard is legit SO GOOD i can't even explain it. wisconsin is gorgeous and custard is unspeakably good. let that be what you take away from this email hahaha. oh hey. it's snowing outside. :) #happyapril i was about to tell you that most of the snow is melted! buutttt apparently i spoke too soon ;) #wisconsin

wednesday we had LUNCH OUTSIDE IN THE SUN and it was glorious :) :) #finnagetasuntan #belowtheknee ;) also, j m informed me that he would like to set me up with his nephew. #soitbegins #meetthems ;) actually though, it's a super nice compliment........ he told me i remind him of his sister. and "you're the salt of the earth, kid." and that was super nice. if slightly awkward. ;) also on wednesday we taught people the gospel of Jesus Christ. have i mentioned that that is my favorite thing to do........... ever??????? because, it is. FAMILY. this gospel is just so TRUE. i know it, i know it, i know it. GOD HAS A PLAN FOR OUR HAPPINESS. It is centered on Christ’s Atonement and fulfilled by living the first principles and ordinances of the gospel. i know this to be true. i know it, i know it, i know it! it is the best :) :) :) there is a REASON for everything. all of God's commandments have a purpose -- our eternal happiness. shaping us. changing us. molding us to become more like Him -- more happy and loving!!! more ready for our mansions!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :) i love Him. i really really do. i try to love Him more every day. He makes it so easy :) :) :) :) :)so. i just love that part of my days :) finna NEVER stop doing THAT...... ;)in the words of Jesus Christ....... "I am the way, the truth, and the life." family, this is true. :) i know it to be true. it makes so happy :) like, cheesy-happy. like, humming "come listen to a prophet's voice" to myself while i'm washing the dishes in my missionary apartment at night happy. :) :) :)"And in the way of truth rejoice/ And sing for joy aloud." :)enough of that. (well, not really, never enough....) but i'll tell you more of that later. like in a dozen-ish days. ;)

in other news......... FAMILY HISTORY. is quickly taking over my life hahaha sis roylance & i went to the oconomowoc geneology meeting on thursday morning and we literally haven't stopped talking about it since. the Lord is hastening His work, y'all!!! it is the best. i have so much to show you & talk with you about when i see you :) :) :) who would've ever guessed i'd be so in love with it?????? God, probably.... He's good like that ;) it's so much more than names and reasearch and dead ends!!! it's pictures and stories and computers and fun :) :) :) it's facebook for dead people! :)

here are some truths that i know: - God wants us to be connected to each other. - all of God's commandments have a purpose.... including family history :) the work is sanctifying!- families are the ultimate source of eternal happiness- i love this gospel :)finna get some people to church with this goodness :) :) :) epic promise: “Very simply, the Spirit of Elijah is the Holy Ghost. The Spirit of Elijah will influence anyone who is involved in this work. That, for a young person in the wickedness in the world in which we live today, is one of the greatest safeguards against the temptations of the adversary. The Spirit of Elijah will not only bless you, it will protect you.”—David A. Bednar"

other things i'd like to say: i may be "coming home" but i'm never going back to the person i used to be :) i don't have to! also, update on my feelings: i feel good. i feel like coming home healthy & happier & better than i left is a good thing. I feel like this is what God wants for me now. I feel like change is good. progression is good. it's a miracle hahaha y'all must be praying for me ;)thursday we went to the B's & i love them. We showed Sister B some stuff with family history (more on that later.......) and had a great lesson with d & a g. brother b is the best, y'all. and sister b. and conference talks :) gems: "You are more than human. You are a child of God.""Family is the pattern of heaven." truth truth truth out of the earth, my friends :)

anyways. i know that the message of the restoration is true and i know that this is the message that the world needs to hear. it has changed my life and it has given me my family, the most important thing in the world to me. i know that it is true. and that is everything to me :) :) :) i wish i could explain it better over email hahah. example of how family history is becoming our favorite problem: "i hope i dream about family history........" ~sis roylance

then we went back to the bs on friiiiiiday and followed up with family history........ and had a miracle. first of all, she had found 157 names to take to the temple on her direct line alone. <3 then we were clicking around and saw "reverend john rogers" ... sister b: "oh, we should do his work! he knows the truth by now!" ;) click on him. see, "burned at the stake" by his death date. ummmmmmmmm? click further. discover that he is one of the FIRST PROTESTANT MARTYRS under queen mary I. um??? legit. it was soooooo cool. we googled & found a story about him and sister b is reading it and C R Y I N G and then I'M crying AND l a u g h i n g because what even is happening????? it was an explosion of emotions. all at once. it was the greatest, greatest moment friends :) :) :) :) :) i'll show it to you later. also she typed up what happened & gave it to us hahah :) :) :) <3 also, sis b had the lower lights playing at her house :) "i like the Christian life..." :) i do, i really do :)

quote from my studies: "when we yield our hearts to the Lord, the attractions of the world simply lose their luster." this is true, my friends! i pretty much don't care about anything if it's not related to the work of salvation hahaha. not that my heart is completely yielded. but i don't want to take any of it back. i want to give it all to the Lord. i straight up don't care about so many of the things i used to care so much about hahaha. please bless this never changes :) :) :)

thursday during the lesson, brother b gestured to us while he was saying "these are women of God" and i thought, "dang. i want to be 'of God!'" :) so that's my goal :) help me out with it? :)

saturday we went to noodles & co with c. that place is delicious & i love it. good job wisconsin :) 

sometimes, we talk to strangers & stop people on the street and talk to them about Jesus Christ and it's fun. this church is true, y'all :)this is good too https://www.lds.org/bible-videos/videos/to-this-end-was-i-born?lang=eng :) 

okay this is getting random & out of control & not very eloquent. my bad. oh well. :)

we also helped the w with family history. finna set this ward on fiiiiiire. love this ward so much :) :) :) also brother w gave me a bro-ish side hug. because we're friends & he's like 60. :) :) :)

SUNDAY. (yes, you made it to sunday.) :) B CAME TO CHURCH. even though she was sick. hooray!! :) :) :) 

we had washington rain & when i stepped outisde i felt like i was home <3

best quote from gospel principles teacher sister g: "& dontchyou know that when we do good things, that God claps for us." <3 i wish you could hear the sincerity in her voice and feel the power of her testimony. it is amazing and i love her :) i just love this gospel so so much and i know that it is true. my testimony has been so strengthened this week and over the past 75 weeks. or so. ;)  sister m gave me lemon drops 'cause she knows they're my favorite <3

i have a happy life :) 

sunday night: "can i just say that jacob talking to sherem = story of my LIFE???" ~ sis roylance. hahahaha. sometimes we get frustrated. things are hard. but we are happy :) the gospel is true, y'all! and that makes this life worth living. that makes every day worth every effort. that makes this message worth sharing :) :) :) :) :) i. love. the gospel of Jesus Christ. i really really do :) i'm a happy happy girl. i love this place. i love you all. i'll see you very soon :) :) :)

xoxoxoxoxoxo

have a safe & happy easter week. remember to share the message, however you can, however the spirit prompts you to :) I testify that God loves each of us. He knows us, individually & by name. He hears & answers our prayers. On our own, we are nothing. But with Him, we have everything :) :) :) :) :) His grace is sufficient. and i love Him more each day :) :)               xoxoxo                love you family :)                   happy happy sister cece :)

 

UPDATE: straight up BLIZZARD outside hahahahaha :) :) :) #leftmycoatathome #thoughtiwasdonewiththis........ #april :)

“I wanna be cool for the Lord, not for the world” :)

oh, family. :) 

first of all, i would just like to say that i believe in living prophets. i do, i do, i do. i believe that God still speaks to His chosen servants and that they lead His church with His authority. and, i love that. i love, love, love it. :) :) :) :) :) :) :) 

so this weekend was obviously great.

BUT MORE THINGS HAPPENED THAT ARE GREAT. 

first of all, a miracle on monday. A G SET A BAPTISM DATE. !!!!!! family, here i must confess that i did not have very much faith going in to this lesson hahaha we've tried to set a date with her before about 2 months ago or so and she was just like "no, no, no, no, no, no, no" literally shaking her head. sooooooooo okay. i would here like to express my gratitude for new companions coming in and being like "we should totally set a date with her" and for having faith and being persistant and loving and helping her to set her own date. #murricle. family, her heart has been so softened. i blame the Book of Mormon and the Spirit. :) :) :) it seriously wasn't us or anyone. it was the Lord. & it's been a long time coming. :) :) :) :) :) [she's been investigating for like 7 years but has never read the Book of Mormon or set a date... until now :) :)] and i just loved it. i loved really feeling like i'm helping someone. cause sometimes you feel like you're just wandering around talking at people hahah. but that night i really felt the change. and i learned that you never never never EVER give up on people :) :) :) :) :) also, quote from her: "ever since you guys have been coming over, prayers have become more of a regular thing" :) i would like to point out that we don't usually talk about prayer. #SPIRIT :) :) :) :) :) anyways. i loved that :) :)

tuesday, zone training day! it was great. according to elder bednar, (who was not there.... he just told president cutler this. because they hang out. apparently.) "our work is changing, turning, and purifying hearts" :) we're trying a new focus on family history and i'm so excited! turns out that's what ammon & aaron & them did.... we always think about them using the scriptures when it talks about them opening & expounding the records of their fathers, & that's true, but it's also family history! how cool! so i'm excited :) :) also on tuesday we drove through racine to my favorite danish bakery and purchased a delicious apricot cheese cobbler kringle that was magnificently delicious and i wish i could send it to you <3 and we also went to go see lake michigan. and then we drove through the "ghetto" because sis ruiz wanted to see it hahaha <3 :) :) also elder goodale & elder mcdougal made me a booklet called "adjusting to non-missionary life". it is tacky & horrible & i love it hahaha :) :) :)also on tuesday a dog winked at me and i winked back #whathaveibecome. and when i asked o why we should be excited for conference or why it's important or something like that, she said "well that's a stupid question!!" hahaha #converted? ;)

on wednesday we went to culvers (shocking i know) and i would just like to reiterate how much i love that food and i WISH that i could mail frozen custard to you #butterburgerbaby ;)  also, talked to a man on his roof. #canwepraywithyou.....? ;) got a free museum tour by talking about family history. and FOUND NAMES to take to the temple when i get home!!!!!!!! pandora's hope chest, people. also, i've heard puzilla is pretty cool. but i haven't tried it. yet. but seriously, what a miracle!! i thought our line was all dried up, no more names to be found.... wrongo chongo bongo. i found 12. finna take them to the temple in 3 weeks :) :) :) anyways. we love family history now. who knew??? :) :) :) [update: in the time it took me to write this letter, i found 17 more names... :)]

best quote from thursday: "i'm sure i could find some people we could teach some gospel principles to!" ~ a c #getsit :) :) :) i love her because i feel like we're on one team with her. & it's cool :) :) :) other best quote: "as it says in preach my gospel..... oh heck, i'm becoming sister proffit!" ~ sister ruiz hahahaha :) :)  i would here like to say that i love this trio :) i love sister roylance and i love sister ruiz. they are great :) :) :)

 friday we had great weekly planning. which sounds boring but is exciting hahaha :) also, great quotes from companions (we love trio comp study) :) :)(talking about ether 12:34) "mansions are big to hold all the people that you love inside! the more people you love, the bigger your mansion will be" ~ sister roylance :) :) not sure if that's doctrine but i liked it :) :)"i'm surprised at how many problems can be overcome by being friends with people..." ~ sister ruiz :):) can you tell why i love them so much? :)

AND THEN IT WAS SATURDAY. and saturday was general conference. and i LOVED LOVED LOVED it so much :) :) :) :) :) we watched saturday morning at the j's house and they are great. they gave me a lemon juice / ginger root / cayene pepper shot to stay awake. it worked really well hahaha. also, the wimpy verse club is back. and brother b, wml & former stake president, is a proud member hahaha ;) ;) ;)i can't compose my thoughts completely so i'll just share a few favorite things :)

elder nelson talking about letting your faith show -- me in my head: "let it show! let it show!" a la frozen :) :)

sorry everyone but all the talks were for me....... so that was convenient ;)

this song = perfection :) We thank thee, O God, for a prophet / To guide us in these latter days. We thank thee for sending the gospel / To lighten our minds with its rays. / We thank thee for every blessing / Bestowed by thy bounteous hand. / We feel it a pleasure to serve thee / And love to obey thy command...We doubt not the Lord nor his goodness. / We've proved him in days that are past...We'll sing of his goodness and mercy. / We'll praise him by day and by night, / Rejoice in his glorious gospel, / And bask in its life-giving light. / Thus on to eternal perfection / The honest and faithful will go :)loved it :) also, best accent = a tie between elder zivic & elder aidukaitis. i would also like to say that i got the spelling of his name down right on the first try soooooo... #proudofmyself ;)

saturday night we got to watch the priesthood session with sister w at her cute little condo and can we just say SMACK DOWN by elder oaks????? it was awesome :) :) :) :) :) thumbs up for LIVING PROPHETS & APOSTLES :) :) :) also, glad i got to hear president uchtdorf talk about "rip van vinkle" hahaha 

SUNDAY gems: "i rrrrrrrrrrrecommend it to you!" ~ elder perry hahahaha i thought of mom saying that when prophets "recommend" something you should probably just do it.... hahaha :) :) :)

also, elder aidukaitis. couldn't handle. he kind of looks like the bad guy from phineas & ferb? hahaha. i'll share with you my more spiritual notes later..... like in 2 1/2 weeks haha ;)

also, sunday was pretty much ruined (but then saved by conference) because PRESIDENT CUTLER called at 9am (cue: heart attack) and told sister ruiz that she's being ET'd to marshfield..... TOMORROW. #brokentrio #brokenheart #literallycrying #ifeelitsnotfine

sooooooooooooooooo we blasted vocal point on our way to the church to console ourselves. #dannyboy #heisborn #superloud #ilovethemidwest

to quote a letter from a friend of mine: "It's the ephemerality of it all that makes it so sweet."

this is true, family. true about a lot of things :) 

i love you times a million, family. i'm grateful for living prophets & apostles. i know that Jesus Christ leads His church today though them. they "keep us in the narrow way" (hymns, #103) and they point us to truth and right. there is an anchor of eternal truth in this crazy crazy world. those who follow God's prophets will never go astray. and, i love it. i love you guys. families are central to everything we do and are about. thanks for being the best :) :)

xoxoxo

sister proffit :)

ps -- yesterday we ate something for sister ruiz (she couldn't finish it b/c she didn't like it) while the family who made the food was out of the room #amirealmissionarynow? ;) #triopower :)

LOVE,   sister c :